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6:07 pm - January 14, 2004

I fucking HATE the University of Oregon website. It won't let me pay my stupid application fee. All I want to do is go to bed. But I have to worry about this fucking application, and make sure I know my A Option song, and do the history notebook, and read Hamlet, and about a dozen other things that I don't give a FUCK about. Why am I doing this? I don't care. I want my parents to stop asking stupid questions. I want to stop feeling so pathetic all of the time. I want the tears pricking at my eyes to go away. I want sleep, and silence, and one day where I'm not bored out of my mind. I want everything like it was. I want affirmation that I'm not going to be alone forever.