gah
7:49 pm - October 27, 2003

Fuck history, and psychology, and english, but especially spanish! Why the hell am I memorizing 70 vocab words that I won't even remember after the test tomorrow? Why? All I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep, even if it is 7:50. Who cares? And why don't I do just that? Crawl into bed and sleep, blow this meaningless shit off? I am afraid of the system, afraid of my parents and teachers and grades and what it will do to my future. So I'll go back to the couch, stare at a piece of paper with Spanish vocab words, and be a good little girl. Follow the path, put something I don't even care about in front of my own needs and wishes.