let the rain fall down and break my dreams...let it wash away my sanity
10:25 pm - September 09, 2003

I feel like I'm going crazy, moments of bliss interspersed with crying and low levels of self-confidence and self-worth. I know I'm supposed to smile, grin and bear it, but I can't, I can't, I can't. Too many things dragging me down, pulling me in all directions, and I can't take it. Give me relief, release, somewhere else to turn. I need something. If only I knew what it was.